This happens every new year. I get home from wherever I was and things settle and I’m alone and it really bums me out. More than it should probably

I’m disappointed that my hunch about you was correct. I was hoping it wouldn’t be true, but here we are.

I am so absolutely terrified of what they have to say about me. Truly and utterly terrified.

I’ve prepared for the worst but hopefully it won’t be such a heavy blow…

Never have I ever worn my heart on my sleeve like this and I am terrified

Here I am

three years later glowing

and growing

and changing in the best way possible

Here I am

three years later feeling

like the world has been lifted off my shoulders

While there is still so much to deal with

I’ve never felt so on top

While there’s still lingering pangs of loneliness

and sadness

and desperation

I’ve never felt so self assured

and so okay with everything

(Source: basmaadl)

I don’t know where this came from
I was doing so well..
I was doing okay
for once

Maybe it’s this weather
it was so warm and pleasant
and then it snowed
and now I’m here at home
instead of in class like I should be

What is wrong with me
where did this come from
why is it back

please just leave me alone

Every few days or so

I am reminded of how lonely I am

And it hurts

And I’m tired of it

And I don’t know how to fix it

you’ve done well
thank you for breathing